“Reset” button

I first bought Tea-Tox last year. I bought the entire Body and Soul set, but this is the one I use constantly. Well, I did until I started to get low and decided to wait until my refill came. The refill that came in the package I almost didn’t get.

On Thursday, I remembered that I had the refill for weeks now. I had no excuse to not make myself a cup again. I’m hooked yet again. It is a wonderful blend of “milk thistle, burdock, green rooibos tea, cinnamon bark, peppermint leaves, dandelion root & lemon balm”. This combination tastes delicious and really does leave me feeling better. I don’t care if it’s all in my head. I feel better for drinking it. Also, milk thistle has been a remedy for detoxifying the liver for a while now. Everything in there has benefits to the body.

It’s delicious and refreshing. It kind of puts a “reset” on my eating habits. Lately I’ve been stressed with a lot of things piling up. On Thursday, a lot of those stresses were gone, finally. I’ve been making sure to have a cup at least once a day. I am worried that it is possible to over-do it.

I’m writing this to share my experience as well as to remind all of us that we need to take care of ourselves. Never forget that. Take care of yourself, both bodily and mentally. Don’t let things overwhelm you. Take care of yourself!

Tea Time

Last month I placed a huge order of tea with Adagio. There were a couple of restocks in there, along with a lot of samples. I had been planning this order for at least a month, if not longer.

About mid-month, I received notice that it had been delivered. I was so happy. I’d be reveling in a mountain of teas! But it was nowhere to be found. That was a Wednesday. The next day another package was reportedly delivered, but nowhere to be found. I went to the post office to see what was going on.

About a week later it was determined that I was one of a few people who had experienced that in the area and they were running with the theory that the packages were stolen. Considering this had never happened before, and I had received packages since, it made sense.

Now I’m waiting for Adagio to get back to me about sending me a replacement order. I’m trying to be nice about it, and not bug them about it, but I really want my tea!!!

But, having my tea stolen has affected my mood. Well, that combined with being sick and then driving to NYC for BroadwayCon. I just haven’t felt like cleaning things out and just relaxing with a pot of tea. It’s starting to show. It’s one of the acts of self care that I can do while I work on a paper or my thesis or grade my students’ work.

I guess I’m writing all of this to remind everyone, keep up the acts of self care! No matter what you do or why you’re doing it, you need to take time out of your day and do something for yourself! If you don’t, the stress and anxiety and worry is going to pile up and wear on you. Sometimes it’s obvious. Sometimes it’s subtle. Take care of yourself!

Intentional Interaction

I am part of, a phrase I am really loving, the Oregon Trail Generation. Basically, it means I was born before this massive shift in technology happened. I remember using 5-inch floppy disks and having to use dos to run the program. I remember when computer screens were black with green or orange text and pixelated graphics. I was in college when Ohio State was invited to join Facebook. I watched as cell phones went from larger than the handset of the corded phone at home to small enough to fit into a person’s pocket.

But, like much of the rest of the country, I have a smartphone that has all sorts of apps and regularly get notified to a list of things. Well, at least I used to.

Lately, I’ve been listening to more recent episodes of Kelly Carlin’s podcast, Waking from the American Dream. Kelly takes time every year to step away from social media for a time. Being a Generation X-er, this whole social media thing happened later in her life than mine. Being an Oregon Trail-er, I find an appeal in taking a break from social media. Which is interesting since I’ve recently started using my Twitter for more than a feed for my blogs and following other people. Kelly has taken months away from social media, something I could not bring myself to do.

But I have found something that I find I can do. I am going back to college. I am going back to the days when the only time I could access my social media is when I was in front of the computer. I have turned off notifications for Facebook. I have turned off notifications for Twitter. And, when I do bring up Facebook or Twitter or Instagram or Tumblr, I do it intentionally. I am not letting myself bring up the page just to kill time. I am bringing it up to intentionally look at what is going on. I don’t want to just mindlessly be scrolling and re-Tweeting or sharing things. I want to be consciously engaging with what is there.

I wonder what would happen if everyone did that. Consciously, intentionally interacting with social media.

The Dude and the Zen Master

As I mentioned earlier, I recently re-read the book The Dude and the Zen Master by Jeff Bridges and Bernie Glassman. This book is something I really needed to familiarize myself with, again. I started it on November 12th and finished it on the 17th. It really helped me to get a perspective on the world and to nourish my soul.

Rather than try to talk about it more, I’m just going to transcribe the quotes I made note of as well as any notes I made while reading it. I just ran across a wonderful article that talks about the book. Check it out if you’re interested. These are simply the quotes that really impacted me this time around. I hope that they inspire you to pick up this book for yourself, or at least gain something from them. But remember that these are simply parts of the whole. They have more when they are consumed as part of the whole. Enjoy!

Worst Nightmare

Do something!

Just before the school year started, aka late August, I ran across a new concept: the Bullet Journal. This is the blog post I read that explained everything. Go. Read it now, then come back.

*patiently waits*

Back? Good. This thing has made a positive difference in my life. I took The Lazy Genius Collective’s advice and keep it simple. I grabbed a small blank notebook I already had and started in. It’s so wonderful to not only have a place to write down my to-do lists, but to create things done lists and keep track of all the little things I used to spread out among many journals.

Currently I am using the black notebook on the left, but it is almost full. As in I have 5 blank pages left. So I bought the journal on the right at Half-Price Books. I’m looking forward to filling it up with to-do lists, things done lists, packing lists, tea log, book quotes and ratings, monthly calendars, journal entries, and all sorts of other things.

But, to my point. I was feeling down and stressed and unproductive. Then, yesterday, I stopped to think about how much I had gotten done that day. Just writing it all down made me feel so much better. It inspired me to go tackle the dishes I had been letting pile up. I didn’t give in and go get fast food, I actually  made myself a sandwich. Then, when I was about to figure out how much I still had to get done and what time I had to do it in, I realized it was only 6:30p! I still had plenty of time to work.

It’s amazing how keeping track of what you’ve gotten done can do for your motivation. I know it sounds weird, but it works for me. Try it, it might work for you, too! Seriously, read How to Bullet Journal. Bullet journaling is so useful because its format is so free, you can make it what you need it to be! It can even be an act of self-care.

Visual Commentary

Company

Everyone has their own way of dealing with overwhelming emotions. Some people can’t stand to be alone at all. If you’re one of those people, go out. Find friends to be with. Don’t be alone! Some people get anxiety over the thought of being social right now. Don’t force yourself to go out. Be alone if you need to. But don’t shut out everyone.

I’m the latter. When the Sit In for Love was announced, my anxiety went through the roof at the thought of going to it. Don’t get me wrong, I am so relieved that it was such a success and that it was there for the people who needed it. I knew it was not for me. I was still processing everything. It was outside. Bowling Green is also affectionately known as “Blowing Green”. The place is flat and open; it’s quite windy. I know the situations I can clearly hear things in, outside in the wind is not one of them. Also, aside from my social anxiety issues, I can be empathetic at some of the worst times. If emotions are running high, they overwhelm me. I knew I could not handle all the anxiety and worry that would be present.

So I headed home. I blasted music the whole way and felt better. I got home and spent the evening with my hubby. I am so glad I can be just with him right now. He’s the right amount of people for me right now. By the time Sunday comes around, I’ll be good to go to church and be more social. But right now, with a few exceptions for errands, I’m going to stick with staying at home.

Do what you need to do to take care of yourself. That’s the most important thing right now. Take care of yourself!

I am safe

Music

I had made a point of avoiding any news on Tuesday. I have enough on my plate that watching the results would have done nothing but added to my stress. As it got closer to midnight, I checked in on Twitter on a couple specific users (@JMunozActor, @Lin-Manuel, @Kelly_Carlin) because I knew that if anything definitive had happened, they would say something. That’s as close as I got. When I woke up on Wednesday, I decided to check Twitter again.

When I saw people talking about Lin thinking of moving to Canada and his response (both of which I posted yesterday), I knew something did not go the way I had voted and was hoping. Considering I teach a class with 35 students, I knew I needed to know what the result was. I found out. I taught class as planned, partially out of wanting to not have a debate, partially because I knew I would not be able to stay calm about it.

Since we have no class because of Veteran’s Day today, and I have no class on Thursdays anyway, I had a drive home ahead of me. I usually listen to music on the way home. Sometimes it’s an audiobook/radio drama. But this time I knew it needed to be music. So I put on my “Pump It Up” playlist and sang along loudly:

1. “Get Your Rebel On” – RuPaul
2. “My Shot” – Hamilton
3. “Raise Your Glass” – P!nk
4. “La Vie Boheme” – Rent
5. “The Click” – Good Charlotte
6. “Sissy That Walk” – RuPaul
7. “It’s My Life” – Bon Jovi
8. “One Week” – Barenaked Ladies
9. “Don’t Fear the Rabbit” – Frenchy and the Punk
10. “Fe Fi Fo Fum” – Frenchy and the Punk
11. “Caravan” – Frenchy and the Punk
12. “Make Out” – Frenchy and the Punk
13. “Steampunk Pixie” – Frenchy and the Punk
14. “The Doctor Lies” – The Ken Spivey Band
15. “Get the Party Started” – P!nk
16. “Born Naked” – RuPaul
17. “Responsitrannity” – RuPaul
18. “2112 Overture/The Temples of Syrinx” – Rush
19. “Closer to the Heart” – Rush
20. “Follow Me Down” – Seanan McGuire

It really helped me feel better. The playlist ended before I got home, so, before switching to my Filk/Steampunk playlist (populated by Frenchy and the Punk, Seanan McGuire, Professor Elemental, The Ken Spivey Band, and a few others), I had to listen to a song that has had a place in my heart since it came out, and it’s message is more important than ever now:

Music has a way of healing us. Music has a way of making us feel better. Make a playlist. Put an album on repeat. Do what you need to do to take care of yourself. Music helps!