I got to the point where I wanted to be today (and needed to be on some levels), and with tomorrow being President’s Day and thus no classes to teach, I decided to take the day for myself.
It’s been a good day reconnecting with myself. I went grocery shopping and started working on listening to myself again. In the attempt to create good habits for myself, I kinda fall into patterns because “they’re good for me.” Like I usually have the same thing to drink every day in a certain order, with my one can of Pepsi waiting for dinner. I started thinking about having it tonight and went with water instead because that’s what sounds better. Just because I usually have Pepsi with dinner doesn’t mean I have to have Pepsi with dinner.
It was like that grocery shopping. This week I started to feel like I need at least a break from the smørrebrød. I also realized that I haven’t been eating as much fruit and veg as I really should be. While the smørrebrød is not bad for me, it wasn’t as enjoyable as it’s been. So it’s clearly time for a break.
Yesterday when we went grocery shopping, I was thinking about what to get for myself today. I realized picking up a rotisserie chicken would be the best way to go for protein this week. I love Meijer’s rotisserie chicken when it’s cold, so I can just grab what I need for that day. I also picked up a chunk of feta for Wednesday and Friday this week, since Ash Wednesday is this week. Once I got the protein figured out, I let myself indulge in fruit. I picked up a pound of blueberries, a bunch of blood oranges, and green grapes because they were all on sale, and I also got a thing of mango because I wanted to indulge a bit. This way I have protein and can grab some combination of fruit every day to go with it. I’m really looking forward to it.
When I got home, I put on something I’ve been meaning to watch and had my Sunday salad. The rest of my day has been working on more masks for myself. At one point my hubby was going out in public more than I was, so he’s got more masks that I do. Now I’m the one going out more, and I need more masks. It’s been so nice to have the repetitive, almost meditative actions of pinning things together and then sewing them, while letting Sort Of play in the background. Also, I’m really doing something for myself. I’ve been so busy working on getting classes prepped and grading and dissertation and other writing that my “me” time has just been vegging out with TV and digital games. I needed something with less screen involvement.
Tomorrow I’m throwing myself back into class prep. I’m not even a week ahead anymore. Hopefully I can get back to being a few weeks ahead. Now that I’m past the worst topic of the semester (Manifest Destiny brings up all sorts of guilt), I should be able to get ahead again. But I am so glad I took this day for myself. Now, back to masks!