Addressing Time Blindness

I’ve mentioned it before, but I have ADHD brain. Recently I’ve been working on finding additional ways to live with it. One big help has been finding the YouTube channel How to ADHD. These videos have really helped me identify things I need help with and the words to use to talk about those problems.

One of those things is time blindness. People with ADHD have a hard time keeping track of time. I either completely lose track of time and suddenly 3 hours have gone by, or it feels like 3 hours, but it’s been 10 minutes. I know the Pomodoro technique and use this site as my timer. The Pomodoro technique uses a series of timers to help you to focus and take breaks. This site explains it better than I can. The site that I use for my timer is really helpful because it keeps track of which timer to use next, so I don’t have to try to remember how many focus sessions I’ve finished. It can be a really useful tool when I need to focus on something I’m not necessarily motivated or want to do but it needs to be done. Like the other day, I needed to do grading, so I set a timer and got it all done before the timer went off! Just knowing it was there to give me a break helped me stay focused and get the grading done.

The thing is, sometimes I plan to use the Pomodoro timer and it interrupts while I’m actually into what I’m doing and disrupts my flow. I tend to use it to get myself to work on my dissertation or other writing projects. But I stick so much to it, it can derail my writing process. I’ve recently realized that just because I start the timer as motivation doesn’t mean I have to stick with it.

Which brings me to the other tool I’ve found to help me with my time blindness. I searched for an app that would discretely act like a grandfather clock on the hour. I just need something that can get my attention, so I’ll notice the time. I found an app called Mindfulness Chime that has a number of options as to how and when it goes off. I have it set for once an hour. It’s really nice. It triggers me to go, “Okay. That’s the time right now!” It’s really helpful.

A third thing I’m reminding myself to use more often is the kitchen timer. I keep starting dinner and going, “Okay, at this time, come back and do something else related to dinner” and completely forgetting to do so. Tonight, I set the timer a couple of times so I knew that I would do what I needed to do at the right times.

All of this is helping me to be more conscious of time, which is something I have struggled with for as long as I can remember. It’s a good feeling.

2023 Reading Wrap-Up

I didn’t get as much read this year as I would have liked. But I did put a good dent into things.

I managed to get 39 books read. I continued working my way through and finished the Discworld series by Terry Pratchett. That was a lot of fun. I’m really glad I finally read the series. I’m fighting the urge to reread it because I’m trying to read more new books than old ones. Most of this year was new reads. The only real exceptions were a few for research. I also got caught up on the October Day, Wayward Children, and InCryptid series. I did only one reread, but I hadn’t read Telegraph Avenue since 2014 and I wanted to read a physical book. I’ve gotten through 3 audiobooks in the past month after realizing that I’m going to have 8 hours in the car each week going to and from work and I might as well listen to audiobooks.

I also got 56 comic books read. I honestly wish I had read more. I did end up starting a Tumblr to help me keep track of the comics as well as jot down any thoughts I had on them. Goodreads has some comics, but not all of them, so I figured a Tumblr would be an easy way to keep track of them. I’m a little behind posting there because I did a massive read just before the moving really kicked in. Usually I try to get them posted the day I finish. Hopefully I’ll get it updated soon. I have to admit, I’m really liking the direction Spider-Man is going. Especially now that they’ve explained the whole “missing time” thing they had going with Peter. I’m looking forward to getting started on Straczynski’s Captain America. Aside from being an amazing writer, he holds a special place in my heart. He was the writer on The Amazing Spider-Man when I first bought a comic. I’m really looking forward to his take on Cap.

A total of 95 books isn’t a bad thing at all. Here’s to hitting (or surpassing) 100 next year!

Reading, reading, reading

Every year I start out trying to get caught up on my comics and stay caught up. Every year something happens and a huge stack develops that I take the time to get caught up with and the cycle continues. I don’t know if I’m going to break that this year, but I’m getting through that stack right now.

In this first week of 2023, I have read 15 comics. I still have at least 30 to read before I can simply read what I pick up later this month. But I have to say, having somewhere to keep track of the reading and be able to write a little something if I feel like it is really nice. Initially I thought I’d just find the cover online and post that, but I’m taking a pic of the comic and posting it instead. Honestly, it’s got to be faster than trying to find it online. Also, it’s nice to go “That’s the comic I just read!”

I’ve also been working on shortening my “Currently Reading” list. Honestly, half of what’s on that list are academic books that I’m picking away at. But I did get two manga finished this past week and moved to the “Read” list. I also got through a new book for my research. Something tells me I’ll be meeting my goal of reading 100 books this year, not counting the comics. Goodreads and StoryGraph don’t include all the titles I read, which is why I have the Tumblr. If I can’t include it on their sites, I’m not including comics in my yearly goal.

Granted, continuing through Terry Pratchett’s Discworld series will help keep my number high. I think I’m about halfway though the series and nearing the end of Thief of Time. It’s at that point where it’s hard to put down. I should finish it tonight!

Reading in 2021

I have been using Goodreads to track what books I’ve read every year since 2010. I like participating in their yearly challenges because it motivates me to read, and some years I really do need it. But last year, I decided to keep track of more than just the books I read. I also tracked the issues of comics and the number of journal articles I read. Reading is about more than simply books. So here’s how last year breaks down:

66 Books total. 34 were fiction; 32 were non-fiction. I read all of Anne McCaffrey’s Dragonriders of Pern series. I read Mira Grant’s Parasitology trilogy. I started Terry Pratchett’s Discworld series.

41 Comic book issues total. 25 The Amazing-Spider Man (which is not surprising since they come out twice a month now); 7 Captain America; 4 Black Panther. I also read the 5-issue Maneaters: The Cursed. I fell behind on my reading and have a decent stack before I’m caught up to current.

21 Journal articles. 9 for the dissertation; 7 for other projects; 5 just because. I got distracted by books for my research.

I’ve set myself a goal of 60 books for this year. I’ll probably go over it again, but I can raise the goal later if I need to. I’m aiming to read 52 journal articles over the course of the year; they really shouldn’t be ignored for books in my research. For comics, I just hope I can stay caught up. With Spider-Man coming out twice a month, it does make it hard. But if I can get caught up on my reading, and get caught up with the buying, it should help.

I’ve already finished the first book of the year, which I clearly started at the end of December, but Goodreads counts it anyway: Wyrd Sisters by Terry Pratchett (Discworld book 6). Having all of the Discworld to go through is going to keep me occupied for most of the year. Luckily I have plenty of non-fiction and trade paperbacks/graphic novels to read in addition to them!

#WorldBookDay2020

According to Twitter, today is World Book Day. I thought about just listing all the books I’m reading right now, but then I realized that I have a blog where I can talk about all of them and post the entry to Twitter! Because I am currently reading 13 different books. Well, reading may be a strong word to use for some of them…

The Sum of All Fears
by Tom Clancy

At the end of last year I decided to read Cardinal of the Kremlin because I didn’t remember reading it of those early Jack Ryan books. After I finished it, I just went for a read from the in-series chronological order. Right now I’m up to The Sum of All Fears which I don’t think I read before. As with most of the Jack Ryan books, I’m really enjoying it.

Unlearn: 101 Simple Truths for a Better Life
by Humble the Poet

I picked this up for free on Kindle between it being on sale and having credits. This is great for reading a chapter or two when I need a break from everything. It’s a great read. It is spiritual and so refreshing.

Alexander Hamilton
by Ron Chernow

This has been on my “currently reading” list for the longest. I picked it up back in March 2016. The only reason it has taken so long to read is I don’t have time to get absorbed by the amazing writing and spend hours reading it. Chernow is a wordsmith and is able to bring history to life in a way that I had not experienced before.

Introducing Cultural Studies
by Ziauddin Sadar, Borin Van Loon, and Richard Appignanesi

This is part of the Graphic Guide series that gives an introduction to different scholars, areas of study, and theories in a graphic novel way. I love the combination of illustration with the words, as well as another scholar’s take on things. This book has really been interesting because it talks about Cultural Studies in different countries, not just the idea of cultural studies in one context or another. It’s given me a better grasp on what Cultural Studies can mean, as well as what most people think of here in the US.

They Say/I Say: The Moves That Matter in Academic Writing
by Gerald Graff and Cathy Birkenstein

This is the one book that I have assigned to read this semester. In it they talk about how to bring in sources into your argument while still maintaining your voice in your work. It is going to be really helpful when I get to that point in my dissertation writing. Right now it’s a lot of the “I Say” side of things, which is just as important as the “They Say” and bringing the two together. I highly recommend it for anyone who is doing academic writing.

The Craft of Research, 4th Ed
by Wayne C. Booth, Gregory G. Colomb, Joseph M. Williams, Joseph Bizup, and William T. FitzGerald

I also recommend this for academic writers. It was recommended to me by my theory professor way back when I started my PhD work. This is actually my second or third time going through. They break research down into the steps and then break those steps down and give really useful advice. It makes the research process feel less overwhelming and more possible to do. I’m probably going to reread it every time I have a research project, because each project is different and I get something different from it each time I read it.

From Dissertation to Book
by William Germano

This book was recommended to me by the editor of a publishing company that I really love. I had asked for advice about turning my thesis into a book and she, and the rest of the panel, suggested this book. I haven’t read much, but it has also been helpful in helping me with my dissertation. What I’ve read so far talks about the differences between a dissertation and a book. I turns out I had been thinking about my dissertation like a book instead of a dissertation. Seeing those differences explained really helped me get started in the writing process and just getting the chapters figured out.

Reading Comics: How Graphic Novels Work and What They Mean
by Douglas Wolk

I’ll admit, it’s been a while since I got back to this book. I do remember it wasn’t quite what I was expecting, but it’s really interesting for a comic scholar.

Batgirl Vol. 3: Death of the Family
by Gail Simone

This is an important chapter in Barbara Gordon’s life, especially in this post-New 52 world. This addresses the trauma that she went through and how it still affects her. It is really important for me to read, especially since I’m writing a book chapter on Oracle!

House of X/Powers of X
by Jonathan Hickman

When they announced that this big change was coming, I made the conscious decision to wait for this book before moving forward. I wasn’t sure if I wanted to keep reading, especially as a researcher. It is an interesting read so far. They alternate the series by number, so it’s the number one of each, then the number two, and so on. I think I’m getting what’s going on in this part, but I’m continuing, hoping that I get an idea of where the franchise is going and whether I want to start reading any of the comics again.

X-Men comics were one of the first comics series I read. But now it’s become more of a search for how it works with my argument about their correlation to Deaf Culture. There is little to none of that when they’re not in relation to humans. Then again, I always like the storylines that were more about the X-Men and their culture and everyday lives than the stories that took place in space or were focused on on baddie.

Metaculture: How Culture Moves Through the World
by Greg Urban

This is the main theory that I am working with in my dissertation. I am working on building on it, making connections to other related works to expand on it, using Hamilton as my example, as the focus of those connections. It has taken me years to get his work to click, but when it did, I realized that this has been a huge part of my research. I simply didn’t realize it. It is a very intense read.

Signifying Rappers
by David Foster Wallace and Mark Costello

My dissertation chair/advisor strongly suggested reading this, because of its perspective on rap and hip-hop by white guys in Boston. I’ve only gotten through the first chapter so far, but its an interesting read. I just need to figure out how it fits into things.

Liveness: Performance in a Mediatized Culture
by Philip Auslander

Another book recommended by my chair/advisor. He recommended this back when I was arguing about the importance of seeing it live, in the theater and how that differed from other ways of seeing it. I think I can still use it to talk about that difference, but in a different way. I think realizing the bigger picture that I am writing about has changed how I interact with this text. I may have to start it over again.

This whole pandemic and quarantine has changed so many things. It’s part of why my list has grown. I keep forgetting how many books I already have started and pick up something new. I’m trying to get refocused, get these books read so I can make that progress and move forward.

Refreshing Myself

I love being outdoors. Especially when there are not lots of people to disturb the scenery. Introverts are Awesome. www.facebook.com/IntrovertsAreAwesome

I had this feeling yesterday. I wanted to go and be outside, play with my camera, and just relax and enjoy nature. But, being Saturday, I knew I wouldn’t get somewhere without lots of people to disturb the scenery. I decided to go over to Inniswood Metro Gardens, armed with my camera, my 50mm lens, and my Kindle, I was ready for an afternoon of relaxation and enjoying nature.

Continue reading “Refreshing Myself”

Tea Time

teanotesLast month I placed a huge order of tea with Adagio. There were a couple of restocks in there, along with a lot of samples. I had been planning this order for at least a month, if not longer.

About mid-month, I received notice that it had been delivered. I was so happy. I’d be reveling in a mountain of teas! But it was nowhere to be found. That was a Wednesday. The next day another package was reportedly delivered, but nowhere to be found. I went to the post office to see what was going on.

About a week later it was determined that I was one of a few people who had experienced that in the area and they were running with the theory that the packages were stolen. Considering this had never happened before, and I had received packages since, it made sense.

Now I’m waiting for Adagio to get back to me about sending me a replacement order. I’m trying to be nice about it, and not bug them about it, but I really want my tea!!!

But, having my tea stolen has affected my mood. Well, that combined with being sick and then driving to NYC for BroadwayCon. I just haven’t felt like cleaning things out and just relaxing with a pot of tea. It’s starting to show. It’s one of the acts of self care that I can do while I work on a paper or my thesis or grade my students’ work.

I guess I’m writing all of this to remind everyone, keep up the acts of self care! No matter what you do or why you’re doing it, you need to take time out of your day and do something for yourself! If you don’t, the stress and anxiety and worry is going to pile up and wear on you. Sometimes it’s obvious. Sometimes it’s subtle. Take care of yourself!

The Dude and the Zen Master

As I mentioned earlier, I recently re-read the book The Dude and the Zen Master by Jeff Bridges and Bernie Glassman. This book is something I really needed to familiarize myself with, again. I started it on November 12th and finished it on the 17th. It really helped me to get a perspective on the world and to nourish my soul.

Rather than try to talk about it more, I’m just going to transcribe the quotes I made note of as well as any notes I made while reading it. I just ran across a wonderful article that talks about the book. Check it out if you’re interested. These are simply the quotes that really impacted me this time around. I hope that they inspire you to pick up this book for yourself, or at least gain something from them. But remember that these are simply parts of the whole. They have more when they are consumed as part of the whole. Enjoy! Continue reading “The Dude and the Zen Master”

I Feel Good!

HAPPINESS IS...quiet time

I am an introvert. I get drained by too much interaction. I need somewhere that I can fully relax and be myself so I can recharge my energy. This past school year I was living in an apartment with three other lovely ladies. I had my own space. I could shut the door. But I was never able to fully recharge.

But all that has changed.

This week I moved into my new apartment. My apartment. It’s all mine. I’m the only one there. I have space! I have an area for working/studying. I have an area for relaxing and watching TV. I have an area for sleeping. I have a kitchen all to myself! It has been a wonderful week. I didn’t realize how drained I was until this week. I knew I wasn’t getting a full recharge, but not anymore!

Since I moved in on Tuesday, I’ve cooked multiple meals from ingredients in the fridge (I went to BW3s a few times). I’ve listened to music loud-ish and sung along loudly without any reservation. I’ve not had to worry about running out of hot water or if someone else is also showering. I can soak in the tub (which I plan on doing next week)!

I hadn’t realized how much better I felt until I was heading home to the hubby today. I set my iPod to shuffle my Favorites playlist and had a blast driving those two hours. I got home and felt really good. Usually I have to recover from the drive. This time I’m recharged; I can just enjoy being home.

Hopefully all of this will lead to a productive weekend home before I head back up on Sunday to get ready for the week. This coming week is Graduate School Orientation, which means the new cohort arrives and we all mingle and get to know each other. It also means one last week before classes begin. Ack!

I just have to remind myself:
That which does not kill me only makes me weirder and harder to relate to.

Unblocked!

Yesterday, my wallet decided to hide out on the backseat of my car. That was part of my problem. Knowing that I had a stack of books waiting for me at the library that I couldn’t get out because my ID was in my wallet was the other. But since I found it just chilling back there after tearing my room apart, things have significantly improved.

Cover of 'X-Men and the Mutant Metaphor: Race and Gender in the Comic Books' by Joseph P. DarowskiOne of the books in that stack is X-Men and the Mutant Metaphor by Joseph P. Darowski. This is the book I have been trying to find. I’ve been wishing I could find a book that would give me some guidance as to overall stories in the over 50 years of stories in the comics. This is it.

I highly recommend this for anyone who enjoys the comics of The X-Men universe. He focuses on the original title, known today as Uncanny X-Men, through issue #500. This book has not only given me guidance as to what comics I want to look at, it has given me focus in general.

It feels so good to have my focus back. It feels so good to know what comics I am going to look at in more detail. It feels so good to have a game plan as to what I am including and what I am excluding. It feels so good to know someone else has looked at these comics closely to examine what they say about things we deal with every day.

I have focus!!!! Now to get my hands on the other comics!